The Concentration Bug

Hey guys,
I know I just posted, but I wrote something special, and I wanted to make sure I put it on here.
The following poem is dedicated to anyone with any kind of mental illness. I have adhd and I'm a published writer, and in cejep.. I never let my issues define who I am, and I hope the same to all of you. It only makes us special that we have a little more jump, or a little issue with cleanliness, or that we cant concentrate, even that we cant speak or walk or think properly. this is for all of you.

The Concentration Bug

I was so young,

How would I know,

That there are many places,

My mind could go.

It travelled fast,

Exploring places,

Making up little scenes,

Making names and faces.

Paying no attention,

While I'm in class,

My focus would travel,

With it's boarding pass.

I could fly to the moon,

But I couldn't hear,

My teacher was talking,

Right into my ear.

From day to day,

From desk to desk,

The teachers would talk,

I'd appear statuesque.

Oh the places I went,

Because school was so boring,

The Professors would talk,

And I would be snoring.

So I didn't concentrate,

It was quite some trouble,

Learning isn't easy,

When your head's in a bubble.

They said pills would help,

Medication and all,

They helped my mind out,

My distractions in a ball.

Upping up dosage,

Was just what I need,

My teachers were happy,

My parents agreed.

I did what I was told,

Didn't argue or yell,

I didn't understand why,

But nobody would tell.

And then when kids said,

I'm stupid and dumb,

I said “its just a pill,

Doesn't change what I become”.

They laughed and they laughed,

Then I finally understood,

The word “special” isn't nice,

It means retarded and no good.

I was so young,

How would I know,

That I had ADHD,

And it'll never go.

im not even hungry

happy yom kippur.
im not allowed eating so that god will forgive me for all the sins i did last year and then put me on the "dont kill this year" list. cause thats whatsup in the jewish religion.
im really bored and home and just watched like a bunch of jersey shore and the office and really, i need a nice massage and junk, but of course, i dont get one cause im me.

so steve jobs is dead. that sucks for apple. i never really was an apple fan, besides their ipods and juice (GET IT APPLE JUICE I MADE A JOKE BAH). but seriously, i think everyone is taking this way too heavily. i mean yea, its sad cause death isnt usually a happy event unless its someone totally shitty, but like everyone has to calm down because i can bet all these people who are panicing, and dont know him, really arent that sad. i mean you didnt know the guy personally so its sad but like dont cry and be all pissed and shit. its really not that HUGE of a deal.

well yea, its kinda a big deal because a co-founder of apple died.
yea, i bolded the "co" in co-founder. because if there has to be a "co" (cooperation or whatever.. i was just guessing) infront of the "founder" then CLEARLY he didnt do this all on his own.
i mean theres another guy who made this shit. i dont know his name, but i didnt know steve jobs name either until everyone was flippin out about him being dead and all.
so clearly to everyone, if one of the guys who started apple is dead, than the company itself can't run and wil reduce to nothingness right?
dude, it wasnt just two guys sitting in a room fabricating the millions of apple products sold today. there were probably thousands and thousands of people working on this project, so just cause one died, doesnt mean the whole thing is ruined. and why dont they make this kind of a deal when anyone else dies? i mean if someone owned a company and they passed, none of their customers (unless they were close with them) would have a damn clue cause heres the truth. steve jobs never stood out there in an apple store and sold someone an ipod. they didnt stand there and do it. id bet until he was sick, nobody really knew the name of the guy who made apple. only the really smart people and the ones who watch the news and actually look this shit up. id bet all parents knew his name (NO OFFENCE) but half the people who own apple product probably didnt.

to me, apple isnt going to reduce sales, or become like hell just cause one guy passed away. first of all, theres another guy, second of all, if there wasnt, there would still be a bajillion other people who are totally qualified and know a ton of computer shit. third of all, there are so many workers and junk that reducing sales and closing shit down would kill SO MANY FRIGGEN JOBS.

so there we have it. i talked about nonsense. and if you dissagree with me im not going to be all like WELL UR WRONG GUY, everyone has their own opinion. but seriously, i think mine makes a bit of sense... just saying. not saying im right, but im just saying i feel good about my arguments.

ok ok ok bye

your "love" makes me wanna stab people

im about to be a huge hypoctite cause ive totally done this before, but i guess my mind set has changed so don't judge me. (or do, i really couldnt care)
so there are couples out there, and i know a ton of em, and i used to be one of them, who take pictures together. now, thats super adorable cause couples are cute and all. BUUUUTTTT, i've been having an issue with people who take albums and albums of photos together, and post them on facebook.
lemme tell you this, nobody cares that you guys take a hundred pictures together. it really gets to me because of the meaning behind doing this.
when i used to take pictures with the ex, i wanted to look good and him to look good and us to look adorable and to post them on facebook, but for what reason really?
COUPLES POST HUNDREDS OF PICTURES TO PROVE & SHOW PEOPLE THAT THEY ARE IN WHAT THEY THINK IS "LOVE".
a real couple, besides marriage cause thats a whole different ball game, dont need to take pictures, to prove their love. if two people are dating, i could have guess that they kiss, and theyre cute together or whatever, i dont need to see it. and it isnt romantic because its like you're posing for other people. once in a while, taking a cute picture with your man is okay, but litterally sitting there for an hour, posing infront of a webcam, doesnt make you guys more in love than the couple who doesnt take pictures. plus, when i see a hundred pictures of you guys kissing, it makes the value of a kiss go so down, because those things are kind of personal, and although nice to see, i dont need everyone to see that i kiss a guy. if im dating a guy, im probably kissing him. its like if you post pictures of you having sex with your boyfriend. i know you guys have sex, and i know you guys kiss, so i dont need to see that on my news feed.

i think the most valuable photos are ones that aren't taken often, or the one that i have on my phone, but i DIDNT post on facebook.
i understand people might get offended by this cause like thats all they do, but next time your about to take a hundred pictures with your "other", ask yourself really WHY are you taking pictures. i know its fun, but honestly its a waste of time. a picture should be capturing a moment, not just a random time you wanna look like a badass kissing someone. im getting tired of people bragging about their love life, and its not cause i was dumped, its cause quite frankly im happy for you that your in a relationship but i really dont give a shit about the rest.
so shut up, and instead of focusing on the outside of your relationship and how u wanna look to other people, how about you focus on how u feel about your other person.

i went there.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE