bleugh is the sound of the day

why havn't i written this yet? why, i was sick, and i was in a teensy bit of trouble.
let me just say, enough is enough, but when do i know what enough is?
its tough to know, but ive learnt to get up, have some water, and see how i feel.
praying to the procelin god, for hours is really no fun at all. specially when it goes on all night and the next day. this gave new deffinition to the word hungover because i hung over my bed, into a bowl, and sang to the top of my lungs, with a burning throat and an empty stomach.
let me tell you.. the movies make this look so much less excrushiatingly irritating and painful. it was honestly, HELL.
i ate soup and toast yesterday, and a few chips. let me tell you, water was my best friend. so was my bed, and my bowl for puke.

so guys, its fun to be a little crazy, but when it comes to the extent that i had it, i think you'll get what i mean when i tell you, i said the words im never drinking again at least twenty five times.

BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU PUT IN YOUR MOUTH.
because its coming out, either from the bottom, or from the top.
and you're embarrassed, sick, in pain, and just plain sad. <3

sudden realization

so, school has sucked this year for me, but you allready know that if you've been reading. BUT what you don't know, is that i've been lying. (omg so coincidental, as i typed : ive been lying, im listening to bye bye boyfried , fefe dobson, and she said ive been lying, when i was tping it. SHUT UP IT WAS COOL)

so as i was saying, i did lie to all of you. school was amazing. i got really great marks, had great teachers, barely any homework, so SCHOOL, was amazing. now my social life, that was a disaster. but really, it wasnt all that bad. i mean it was really a group of pathetic, low lifes that just wanted to ruin mine. and yes, they did a pretty good job of it.. but i mean, i think im pretty well off. i have a extremely sexy boyfriend, a couple of AMAZING friends outside of school, and sadly for me, i relized too late that i had amazing friends in school as well. so my sudden realization, is more of a thank you..

thank you to alex, my amazing boyfriend, for listening to me vent for hours and hours about the bullshit that goes on in school, and for convincing me that you would beat them up for me, even though you wont cause its beneath you, nd ur too sweet to hut anyone. i friggen love you <3

thank you to beany (other alex), who is by far the WORST "gay bes friend" stereotype, but the most amazin friend in for reals. for making me laugh, threatening any guys who hurt me that ull have their balls in a ziplock bag, and for being real with me, and not just trying to make me feel better. the truth my hurt, but a slap in the face is usually what i need. i lurve mybig bro <3

thank you to jess (dokis) for being my "inside man" jkjk, and for sticking up for me even if it looked a little bad on her. for being the one who stole ALL the guys ;) and for being like my twin. i dont think i would be the same person if i hadnt obsessed ovr you in grade seven and bought you a watch for your birthday. jtm bub

thank you to jess (itzco) for being the prettier one. ;) honestly, we were FORCED to be friends, and it never worked, then give us a summer and all the sudden were SBS'ing and were just going a little nuts. although i don't see you enough, i wish i could see you everyday (which i could were like 10 minute neighbours) and i dont say this enough, buit i really appretate how forgiving and how much you wnt to help me out of all my pickles. iluvyu

last but not least, thank you jordana for teaching me that u dont gotta go crazy to have fun. we can get HIGH off of horton hears a who, and stupid shit like that. your honestly like a sister to me, and weve been through so much together. you saythat you can't live without me, cause i've helped you through your bubble, but you've helped me establish that its okay to have a bubble, and nobody needs to know EVERYTHING. your honestly the biggest sweety pie, and your my lil jew <3 ilysfm

of course, thank to my family, but bleh.
so my realization is that, i have 5 days left of school, two weeks of exams, two proms, and then im done, im GONE, forever. so really, theres no point sweating the small stuff anymore, because its so ... small. i mean im going to a bigger and better place (no, not heaven) ; CEGEP!!!!

from the desk of justine erin frankel, i wish i knew this when i started this year, because then woulda been happier nd perfect. but when is perfection ever fun? xo

what really bothers me

i told you about that friend that im no longer friends with.. well, its bothering me
so i deleted the guy off of facebook, and we arent talking at all.
first of all, he hasnt spoken to be since before my party (april 30th) and not even to say happy birthday. and of course, when i deleted him there was no attempt to fix things. although to some extent, i didnt want him to try and fix it, it hurts me deeply that he didnt even try. i mean the kid and i have been best friends for over a year, and all the sudden, i stop talking to him because he has let me down, hurt me, igore me and make me feel like complete shit; and he completely ignored me.. so that proves that he never really cared about me, because he isnt even trying to win this friendship back. and that is whats bothering me, because hes out there, forgot about the situation, doesnt care nor is he suffering, when im sitting in here bothered out of my mind. he clearly idnt give a crap and nevr will, but why do I need to suffer when i did what was right for myself.. and why if i did the right thing, do i still continue to feel like shit about myself?

life is unfair, wanna help ? pls. because my other friends said i did the right thing, and the feeling will pass, but it hasn't passed, and its so difficult to forget about someone you care so much about, oh and seeing them on your news feed, and their best friend on msn, NOT EASY.

issues are issues, and friends are friends, but when one of em ends, its hard to deal with.
so, ive never asked for advice, and i dont know what im getting myself into, but
if anyone has any advice, you know where to find me: justineerinfrankel@hotmail.com

frenemies

sup blognerds and followers of the world
i've had an issue resolved.
stupid friends are dumb, got it?
let me just tell you, if you're a girl, and a guy likes you, and you dont like him back, DON'T become his best friend, and expect everything to be okay.. things will deffinately become worse for you. because of his like, he will become you everything. honestly, y'all will be attached, best friends, change-your-facebook-name-and-be-siblings kind of friends.
then, once he gets over you, theres no reason to be your friend anymore, and as much as he cares about you, or wants to care about you, he has to face the fact that he doesnt, but you of course still care about him because you guys are BESTIES. but the problem is, your friendship was based on his crush on you, on your not supposed to be sad, but of course, you're basically depressed cause all you want is to stay friends with this guy who honestly, is done with you, and onto another person.
i shouldnt be surprised, my mom warned me that this would happen, and i was all "nah mum thats not going to happen" but then he misses your birthday, misses your plans and misses talking to you. don't set yourself up for that dissapointment, no matter how tempting the best friendship is at first.
the problem is, your the one whos kidding theirself. you think that you really got to them, but guys are guys, and no matter what, they like you, you're their everything, and when they don't like you, you're kind of a side friend. only if they NEED you, you'll get attention.
You become friends with them because nobody else gives you attention like this, your so happy, and then you're the one who ends up attached, and getting hurt in the end, thinking it'll work.

girls can be friends with guys, i totally back up that theory, but 99% of the time, someone will get hurt, and its usually the both of them.

ciao boes.
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