its finalllyyyy suuummmerrr!! so i am crazy happy cause of course i've been waiting for the "SUMMER OF MY BEING 18" for like ever. its been gorgeous outside and ive been spending a lot of time in the beautiful sun and ive been planning the summer in my head.
I've got weekdays working at a summer DAY camp close by, with good pay and itll be fun running around with kids all day. i've got nights and weekends off.
I've got this month of summer before i start working and i was hoping on being out late and hanging out with people and just never being bored,, and ive got to say i should lower my expectations A LOT.
1. living in ddo, on the 206 bus path SUCKS. the bus stops at 11:30, and im not near anywhere that i can go to at night, and if i have no way home i've got to come home at 11:30..
2. most of my friends are farther away, so getting to them is a drag, 1h and a half to get to downtown, and to go ALL the way to them is like 2h usually. so thats an even bigger sucky thing
3. EVERYTHING costs money.. and YES, i am going to be working, but i need money NOW, not then!
4. NOBODY has a car... and if they do, they live far and dont want to drive, and even if i offer to pay gas money, they just wont make the travel (this does not include alex who does take the time and does drive to me and i want him to know how much i appreciate it and him! <3 so this doesn't apply to you alex ur the man)
5. assholes. so once all the other things on the list are sorted out and i DO have plans, i end up being stood up or not even contacted. mister "hey i havnt seen you in forever i miss you when can i see you" becomes ALL THE SUDDEN non existent, and doesnt show up, or text, or call, or anything, so whatever plans i made, are automatically cancelled.
YES, im PUMPED to be 18, i wanna go out all the time and do crazy shit and i dont even know.. but mostly i just wanna spend time with people.. the only time i like being alone is when im in the mood to be alone, when im not, its the worsssttttttttttttttttttt......
The solution is to make more friends, but i actually dont know how to make friends.. its weird cause im not shy at all and im really outgoing, but i dont know how to make a friend.. i just never learnt or whatever.. plus when i meet people through other people, chances are they allready have their group of friends..
basically all of my friends are part of different groups of friends.. im not part of any group of friends, and i hate that. so thats me complaining about this. i just needed to yell at someone, and this blog is just there and im here and im like WELL HEY.
im sorry if this wasn't the post you were hoping it would be, it had no morals or real ends to it or solutions to the problem.. its just me, recording feelings and thoughts.
so yea. thats all friends.
luv luv luv luv sunny weater tiny tan line red face sweaty jus.
Monday, May 21, 2012
Monday, May 7, 2012
my rage against the complainers
i've been told that I'm alway excited and happy and this is why people like me.
LOL
1. Me, HAPPY ALL THE TIME? I puke at people who are happy all the time. I'm content most of the time, but I'm not truly satisfied and happy.
2. PEOPLE DON'T LIKE ME. most people tolerate me, but i've got a line up of people who don't like me
the thing is, the reason why it doesn't seem like people hate me is cause i've shut up about the people who hate me. i dont care about the people who hate me...
i just dont give a fuck
ive tried my entire life to impress people just to be accepted,
and i left highschool a lot of assholes bullying me, a bunch of other shit, and got dumped in a text, so i said "fuck this shit" and i realized that i dont give a shit about people and what they say or think about meand when i stopped trying, five seconds later i meet max
i make a bunch of new friends
and as soon as i start trying again, max and i are fighting and our relationship is over,
and now, im not trying anymore, and it feels better than it has in a long time because we're actually good friends.
the secret is to not give a fuck
if someone doesnt like you
who the fuck cares
there are 7 billion people on the planet
some of them arent going to like you
u gotta accept it and move on
people are mean because they have shit in their own lives, and because they want to see a reaction
dont give them one
at least not in person
dont get mad at people, life is too short to dwell on anything.
people are so busy focusing on the negative shit around them that they can't stop and appreciate anything.
and YES i am being a bit hypocritical because i tend to flip shit when one bad thing happens, but its something we ALL have to work on.me included, and A LOT.
I just think that enough is enough.
If someone shit talks you, block them out.
If your friends aren't treating you right, they're clearly not your friends and you should probably get out of that.
If you're in a bad relationship, get the fuck out, stop being miserable.
we need to stop accepting the shit that goes on in our lives.
theres no point in living if all you're going to believe is that you'll never be happy and you accept that.
we all have to stop letting ourselves be so sad, its gotten to this point where our default setting is to just be mad or sad at anything that gets thrown at us, because its not what we are used to.
embrace the change, maybe we'll get something beautiful out of it.
im not saying "yolo" cause thats a stupid saying, but i am saying that live your life.
theres worse out there, so stop crying over spilt milk and if you're not satisfied with something,
get the fuck out there and fix it!
love u, jus
LOL
1. Me, HAPPY ALL THE TIME? I puke at people who are happy all the time. I'm content most of the time, but I'm not truly satisfied and happy.
2. PEOPLE DON'T LIKE ME. most people tolerate me, but i've got a line up of people who don't like me
the thing is, the reason why it doesn't seem like people hate me is cause i've shut up about the people who hate me. i dont care about the people who hate me...
i just dont give a fuck
ive tried my entire life to impress people just to be accepted,
and i left highschool a lot of assholes bullying me, a bunch of other shit, and got dumped in a text, so i said "fuck this shit" and i realized that i dont give a shit about people and what they say or think about meand when i stopped trying, five seconds later i meet max
i make a bunch of new friends
and as soon as i start trying again, max and i are fighting and our relationship is over,
and now, im not trying anymore, and it feels better than it has in a long time because we're actually good friends.
the secret is to not give a fuck
if someone doesnt like you
who the fuck cares
there are 7 billion people on the planet
some of them arent going to like you
u gotta accept it and move on
people are mean because they have shit in their own lives, and because they want to see a reaction
dont give them one
at least not in person
dont get mad at people, life is too short to dwell on anything.
people are so busy focusing on the negative shit around them that they can't stop and appreciate anything.
and YES i am being a bit hypocritical because i tend to flip shit when one bad thing happens, but its something we ALL have to work on.me included, and A LOT.
I just think that enough is enough.
If someone shit talks you, block them out.
If your friends aren't treating you right, they're clearly not your friends and you should probably get out of that.
If you're in a bad relationship, get the fuck out, stop being miserable.
we need to stop accepting the shit that goes on in our lives.
theres no point in living if all you're going to believe is that you'll never be happy and you accept that.
we all have to stop letting ourselves be so sad, its gotten to this point where our default setting is to just be mad or sad at anything that gets thrown at us, because its not what we are used to.
embrace the change, maybe we'll get something beautiful out of it.
im not saying "yolo" cause thats a stupid saying, but i am saying that live your life.
theres worse out there, so stop crying over spilt milk and if you're not satisfied with something,
get the fuck out there and fix it!
love u, jus
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