ive never had much respect for people with regrets.

not the "i regret drinking that much" or the "i regret not studying for that test", but like the life regrets. i used to say that i regretted things i had done that had changed everything, like a person i meet, a person i "hook up" with, a person i date, someone i hurt or someone i loved.

i dont respect people with regrets because if you regret something that changes your life, you are pretty much saying you regret your life today.

sure, i wish i hadn't done certain things i did, but i sure as hell dont regret them. i can look at myself today. I am a writer, i express myself, im not afraid to show my emotions, im not afraid to be myself, and i can finally stick up for myself against losers that are fake and shouldnt matter to me.

You know, ive been hurt, ive been used, i was bulimic, i was almost depressed, i smoked to make myself happy, and i cried my eyes out for the ones i loved, but that makes me who i am today, and i dont regret who i am, cause all that shit that got me here were just little bumps in the road, and made me a stronger person.

i dont regret life, i dont regret decisions, and i most of all would never regret love. because without it, we are absolutely nothing. without love, theres greed and hatred. and we dont need that again.

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capitalism at its greatest.

soz, i was on this site and there was this question and answer thing that this guy answered, and i had some thought on it that i felt i should share :)

Q: If you could change anything in the world, what would it be and why?

A: I'd change the face that our country is dependent on foreign labor which would open new jobs in the USA for Americans to do which in turn would probably lower poverty rates.

yes, i felt something strong about it. i really admire that he answered that. the problem is that americans (no offense) have learnt to be like this and not work very much to get what they want. they are a capitalist society so if the rich people are getting what they want for a good price, thus making them richer, they have no reason to care what happens to the people below them, the poor people, because they're happy, creating poverty. if the people on top would become more socialist (which wont happen very easily) then they would care a bit about their society and not just themselves, and they would deffs contribute to helping reduce poverty. but unfortunately since politicians and rich people are almost like best friends. the rich politicians are payed and make rules that are in favor of the richer people, thus making the rich richer, and the poor poorer.

its a tough world to face, but people have just grown up to get what they want, not caring about the people they hurt to get it. thats how the great depression started; by greed, and i can honestly say that since this recent recession, there is a possibility of another depression coming because of the greed and the over consumption of not only the US, but around the world.

sadly, there's not much that can be done to change it because even i wont stop buying things "made in china" because they are things i want, no matter who makes them. maybe next time try to buy safer, and more locally.

but thats just what i think (;

its a cling thing

havnt written in a while, i guess the mood was gone.

you know, my mood has been quite neutral i guess. ive been spending so much time dreaming of this fantasy world, when im supposed to be this down to earth girl who knows what she can get and who knows who she is.

i know who i am i guess, but maybe its just hard to admit who i am. maybe its hard to admit what i want.. i dont know whats been inside me, but its like a bug thats just eating my insides and wont go away.

i know im young, but i want love. like i really want to feel something with someone. i dont want to look for it, because then thats being desperate, and im not desperate. im just so tired of all these guys out there that think they know what they want but in truth they know nothing. i wish there was a guy who was, well who was as clingy as i am. yea im clingy. i like to talk to the person im with at least twice a day (good morning and good night) , and id like to see the person im dating at least once a week. is that so hard to understand? oh and i miss someone when im not with them. im sorry if thats such a crime to all these guys in the world, but wether they like it or not, a girl is going to miss you if they are dating you.

girls are complicated, ill tell you that. BUT we arent hard to understand. When we ask you what were thinking, we just want to know. When we tell you we miss you, you dont have to say it back, but it would be nice. When we ask you a question, we dont want a lie. its really not that big of a request. and when some stupid asshole comes into our lives and by fluke we fall for what we think he is, we actually want to be friends sometimes even though they hurt us so much, BECAUSE WERE ACTUALLY NICE.

like all these stupid people in the world that dont understand what it takes to be in a stable relationship are just going to fail in it. its not that much of a challenge. just be honest, talk to the person, and actually show a little compassion once in a while.

oh and have the dignity to break up with us in person. its embarrassing when you do it any other way.

sorry for complaining. im just angry.

pce,

jus.