its finalllyyyy suuummmerrr!! so i am crazy happy cause of course i've been waiting for the "SUMMER OF MY BEING 18" for like ever. its been gorgeous outside and ive been spending a lot of time in the beautiful sun and ive been planning the summer in my head.
I've got weekdays working at a summer DAY camp close by, with good pay and itll be fun running around with kids all day. i've got nights and weekends off.
I've got this month of summer before i start working and i was hoping on being out late and hanging out with people and just never being bored,, and ive got to say i should lower my expectations A LOT.
1. living in ddo, on the 206 bus path SUCKS. the bus stops at 11:30, and im not near anywhere that i can go to at night, and if i have no way home i've got to come home at 11:30..
2. most of my friends are farther away, so getting to them is a drag, 1h and a half to get to downtown, and to go ALL the way to them is like 2h usually. so thats an even bigger sucky thing
3. EVERYTHING costs money.. and YES, i am going to be working, but i need money NOW, not then!
4. NOBODY has a car... and if they do, they live far and dont want to drive, and even if i offer to pay gas money, they just wont make the travel (this does not include alex who does take the time and does drive to me and i want him to know how much i appreciate it and him! <3 so this doesn't apply to you alex ur the man)
5. assholes. so once all the other things on the list are sorted out and i DO have plans, i end up being stood up or not even contacted. mister "hey i havnt seen you in forever i miss you when can i see you" becomes ALL THE SUDDEN non existent, and doesnt show up, or text, or call, or anything, so whatever plans i made, are automatically cancelled.
YES, im PUMPED to be 18, i wanna go out all the time and do crazy shit and i dont even know.. but mostly i just wanna spend time with people.. the only time i like being alone is when im in the mood to be alone, when im not, its the worsssttttttttttttttttttt......
The solution is to make more friends, but i actually dont know how to make friends.. its weird cause im not shy at all and im really outgoing, but i dont know how to make a friend.. i just never learnt or whatever.. plus when i meet people through other people, chances are they allready have their group of friends..
basically all of my friends are part of different groups of friends.. im not part of any group of friends, and i hate that. so thats me complaining about this. i just needed to yell at someone, and this blog is just there and im here and im like WELL HEY.
im sorry if this wasn't the post you were hoping it would be, it had no morals or real ends to it or solutions to the problem.. its just me, recording feelings and thoughts.
so yea. thats all friends.
luv luv luv luv sunny weater tiny tan line red face sweaty jus.
